Hurricane Iota hit Honduras the week my son and I returned from the U.S. after a long evacuation. Eight months of creating a home away from home, where there was love and green space and freedom, but without my husband, without a sense of normal, and not knowing when we’d be reunited.
The night we landed in Tegucigalpa, there was wind and torrential rain, but also peace: we were together. The roof leaked in several places, like tears running down the walls. Walls I had not lived in for quite some time, within which I could not find things. Where is the pasta strainer?
I opened drawers and cabinets, rearranged furniture. I put on my favorite fuzzy socks, straightened books, and washed blankets, seeking coziness and order. Re-establishing my presence, reclaiming space here.
“Tracita! Bienvenida!” said the store clerk I hadn’t seen since winter. “Donde esta?” she inquired with wide eyes behind thick glasses. The answer felt too big to fit in my mouth, so I said simply, “Away, but I’m here now.”
On the first day of sun, I gathered groceries. I cooked all morning, stacking copper pots in the sink, stocking the fridge with nourishing food. It felt healing and made the house smell good. I missed those copper pots, missed cooking in my kitchen.
We set the table, lit candles, and fostered togetherness, not taking it for granted. Unity. Connection. Hugs. Cocooning ourselves; not hard to do in an era of Covid, but now welcome.
There are a few things I had forgotten about living here:
- the need to gird my loins while avoiding errant mopeds on the road
- don’t drink the tap water
- fireworks-loud ones, late at night
- how fortified the city is with its high walls with barbed wire
And yet so many things to love:
- morning coffee and conversation on the patio
- rediscovering our belongings and creative spaces
- the palm tree and hummingbird in our garden
- roadside tiendas selling vibrant flowers, fresh pineapples, and avocados
- how good it feels to sit at my desk, surrounded by writing instruments, books, and journals
….and a million little things about home that hold my heart.
Love & Light,
“Tracita” (little Tracy).